my life..

...is a mixed bag of emotions these days...jadugar ke potli with different colors...i feel happy at times..i feel sad other times..i miss my best buddy...when i talk to her she doesnt responds..she makes me wait..i crack jokes wit sam n rich..go for coffee breaks wit chubs n golds..chatter up on sametime..fight on sametime..get to hear diff stories abt a person i know..and then im forced to make decidions..n then think y i got into all of this..then after sometime im back to normal wit tht person...i try to create a feeling of trust...try to believe tht nothings wrong..be positive..inspite ppl tellin me to think otherwise..i hope im not makin a fool of myself..then i curse my org..for things happenin there..new client..new project...new responsibilties....im project lead..i need to learn things..say things like tht...im cycnical..im negative..i need to wrk on a smiling face..i look pareshan..i need to think abt marriage...i need a house..i need a car..i need to invest...aarrrgghhh!!! too much ho gaya yaar...